So... Females by nature are more emotional than men. It's just in our genes. I've learned that as an athletic trainer, you can't get too emotional, you can't show that you have feelings, because then you tend to seem weak. Everyone wants a strong ATC by their side. But something happened today that I want to share with you all. The Southern Maryland Blue Crabs, my team, my brothers, my second family.... We unfortunately lost today in the ALPB Championship series. It's a 5 game series and we were down 2-1 in the series. Today was a big day. We needed to win. We needed to move on to tomorrow. There were a few guys in the game that wanted to be in that game so bad even though they weren't 100%. I would have never known as a spectator that they were even feeling any pain or discomfort. They played their butts off. My emotions ran wild today. One player in particular, I haven't seen run, REALLY run, in 2 months. And he ran as though he wasn't hurt. That emotion I felt was joy, even pride. He had a hell of a game, and I am so happy with how he played. Another player had a hurt hand, and you would have never guessed it with all the fly balls he caught. Such amazing athletes these guys are. They wanted to win so badly. The game was tied 1-1 in the 7th inning and the bad guys scored 2 runs. The bottom of the 9th inning came. This is our favorite time to hit and get runs. But the bad guys prevailed. I couldn't help but shed a few tears. Did the other team want it more? I don't think so. The Blue Crabs haven't had a Championship ever and the opposing team has had 5. This was our chance. These guys played their hearts out. They made it so far. But what happens to the athletic trainer? Are we allowed to show emotion? Or are we supposed to be the strong ones? I know as a female, I have a lot of emotions and I tend to show them. After this loss, I am sitting in my office typing this and trying to hold back the tears. I think it's a little different for me too. This was my first year as a professional sports ATC and these guys have welcomed me with open arms. I couldn't have asked for a better group of guys. Like I said... I have 30 brothers here, and I don't want to walk away sad. Unfortunately, that's what I'm going to have to do. I would have gotten emotional when saying my goodbyes if we won, too, but I think this feeling isn't the feeling I want to have. So I ask you, readers, how emotional are you when it comes to big game losses or when you feel like you can't get someone healthy or even saying goodbye? I know I'm pretty upset about all of that....
I don't have an article today. I don't know if I need one here. But I do want to end with a huge thank you to the Southern Maryland Blue Crabs. Between the front desk, the coaching staff, and the awesome players I had the opportunity to work with this year.... Thank you! You have all made my first year with the Blue Crabs amazing. It was worth all the late nights, the early mornings, the arguments of who was cleared to play or not, and the 148 games that we played together. I can't wait until next year!
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